Saying goodbye once again to a good friend

On January 2, my wonderful husband decided it was time to tell me a painful truth. In my previous post I had explained why we had to give away my precious Trinity. A few days before Christmas she was hit and killed by a car. Jeff, not wanting to ruin my Christmas decided not to tell me. I asked him on Jan 1st to find out how Trinity was doing and he made the painful decision to tell me the truth. Just when I was starting to deal with her not being with me anymore, now comes the guilt and pain of her not being here forever. I am so torn in my feelings right now. I was so distressed over the thought that she thought that we just abandoned her, but at least now she is at peace and knows that what we did was in her best interest. I know that in death she has come home. There are signs of her everywhere, which does ease my breaking heart. I just can't keep but thinking that everything happens for a reason. I am a firm believer that when it is your time you know. Maybe her strange behavior was her way of getting away from us, she knew that her time here would not be long and wanted to spare us the painful sight of her death. Be at peace now Sissy, my beautiful Diva Dog and know that you always have a home here and you will always be loved and missed!!